Friday

06292012



i’ve always set my clocks and watches at least five minutes forward. this was my way of hassling myself. not that i am ever behind… i’m not. but it has been my rule in life to always be on time, even if that means being a little bit early. ‘after all,’ i always told myself, ‘getting there early is better than getting there late.’ but what has this done for me but lose me five minutes of life for every event at which i had to be present? five plus five plus five plus five… how many times? i have wasted enough time trying to meet someone else’s time. besides, wasn’t it albert einstein who once said that the only reason we have this construct called time is so that everything doesn’t happen all at once? i like this thought. and i will not argue with it.

this morning. i set all my clocks and watches right on time! i will no longer be the one who is early just to be present. i will be there on time… or not. i will start saving my five minutes here and there, and i will hold them lovingly between my palms. and at the end of each day, i will bathe myself in all of those precious minutes… mine… mine… mine… each and every one of them!

i will no longer try to race time. i will play with it… slowly. with relish… and pleasure… and joy. and i will smile while doing it, because i believe… i know… that time is only there so that everything doesn’t happen all at once.

Sunday

06172012

she said,
i dreamed he stood before a woman, smiling,
and placing a ring around her finger.

i said,
was this a disturbing dream for you?

she said,
of course, yes. but it was the woman
who disturbed me most.

i said,
what was it about her
that disturbed you?

she said,
i couldn’t see her face.

i said,
if you were to put a face on her now,
whose face would you put there?

she said,
i would put my own.

i said,
and what if
you were to become the ring?

she said,
i would choose my finger and
i would wrap myself around it.

i said,
and what if
you were to become the woman?

Friday

06082012



again
the sun rises
like a new promise
between old friends