Friday

11232018

we lie down on the ground
whispering about what rises within us

and what the earth carries
while the sky lingers and waits


re-enchanting itself
weaving a madrigal of awakening

washing away the indecision
painting us with intention

11092018

share with me your thoughts. tell me. do you think i'm too serious? yes. i am. i already know this. but saying it is owning it: i am too serious. 

i hear my voice inside my head. i speak the words out loud: i am too serious.

my inner child bristles: i am too serious?

i say the words. i own the words: i am too serious.

i am not words. 

i am not narrative. i am not story.

i am not a hesitant reenactment of faulty memories.

i am not a unidimensional state.

i am playful. i am child. i am infant.

this, too, i own.

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this truth brings tears.

won't you extend me a tissue? a hand? a shoulder?

won't you measure my need on a scale? won't you sum it up into a simple number? won't you qualify it? quantify it? multiple choice? yes or no? true or false? likert scale? won't you break it down so you can see all the parts?

won't you penetrate its deepest spirit?

this tunnel.
this passage.
this corridor.

is endless.

but.

i have.

a mallet
for every curve of concrete.

a key 
for every door.

Sunday

11042018

i am moving / moving / constantly / unpredictably / where am i going next?
life presents itself to me / in all of its wonder 




and / i explore my world




like an infant / in awe
like an ancient / in reverence

Saturday

10272018


intuition.
incubation.

discernment.

movement.

Friday

10192018

yes. 
i know. 
this is truth.

it exists in silent presence.
in a quiet corner.
inconspicuous.

i ask.
it shines.

world.

universe.

infinity.

Sunday

06242018

it is dawn
a cool, sweet morning.

a gentle breeze laps at my cheeks.

i close my eyes and draw my breath
and sigh... exhaling slowly.

i lift my pen and write,
listening to the grass
and the dew

and the beauty held within
the tranquil horizon.

i am awake
and alive and
unwilling to escape
from the flow of life.

Saturday

06162018

somewhere inside me
there is an oasis
for every dream

every scream
and every laugh
that emerges from

my deepest wells
visceral and untamed

here is where
i am most centered

most authentic and
vivified

the sky is filled 
with quiet light and 
bellowing blaze and

somewhere in between

there is a refuge
within which

the wholeness of me
is restored

Sunday

06102018

once again,
life is in motion.

and i am bedazzled.
rushed.
worn.

this morning,

i pause 
beside my kitchen window
to witness and be witnessed.

life breaks through
every fragile boundary.

all the walls
are torn down.

i don't give an inch
to distraction.

i remain still.

i listen.

Tuesday

05222018

now.

again.

i inhabit
this body.

i feed on silence.

i entrust myself
to my own tranquility.

Monday

03122018

she said,
i want to spread the word
about what happened.
i want the truth
to be known.

i said,
we can use words to create
magic or to create calamity.
speak judiciously.
be mindful what you say.

Sunday

02252018

the confluence of sky and sea...




... the inimitable expression of reverence.

02042018

a minute can go by quickly,
or so very slowly. 

this minute… like driftwood 
in this vast, gushing river.

other pieces of driftwood 
swim together close by.

i float briefly, feeling the water
ripple over my skin. i immerse
myself in the sacredness of
this stream of nature.

i gather strength and wade
back to shore, a net of
driftwood dragging 
behind me.

i feel empowered, refreshed, 
energized.

i feel changed by my experience of
forcing my way down to the bed of
the river and allowing myself to be 
carried up by the rush of water. 

i feel here. in this moment. now.

no judgment. no attachment. 
just observation. and release.

Saturday

01272018

i say ‘we,’ so much easier than saying ‘i.’ 
i say a word, but what i mean is
something behind it. 

i say, ‘we hide behind our other faces,’ 
but what i mean is
‘i hide behind this farcical lie.’ 

there is such loneliness in ‘i.’
such hollowness… such solitariness in knowing
there is no one to share your i-ness with you. 

to exist inside a certain state 
inside a certain ‘i am’ 
and to know ‘this oneness is mine.’

there is such angst inside 
that dark reality… this terrible truth
i am delivering from the shadows.

Sunday

01212018

sometimes, one must rest—i must rest—from 
the ubiquity of life. but. i go one step
further. i lie down to sleep.

that is my intention. 
to sleep.

a failed intention,
as it turns out.

instead, 
i feign sleep. 

someone once told me that 
pretending is a surefire 
step in the direction 
of truth. 

i say, if pretense be my truth
in this moment, so be it! 

in simulating sleep, i find it.

Tuesday

01162018

today.
found time.
unanticipated.

it greets me.
i grin.

i observe it
as though it were
an optical illusion.

it is,
isn't it?

the afternoon is pulsing,
resonant and serene, 
filled with possibility.

i dare to be with
the extraordinary.

i dare because,
not to dare...

i am seized by a radiance
that demands no
return.

01022018

bark. stark.
angles. dreams.

vitality. audacity.
anticipation. desecration. 

the skin whimpers.
the spirit churns.

a vacant chair 
sits by a window.

a desiccated orange rind 
rests beneath a table.


don’t let’s talk about hunger, please.