12192011

for the alleviation of angst:

take one deep, conscious breath.

it is that simple, yes.

key word to bear in mind:

conscious.

this is where the difficulty lies.

12162011

we came together

one last time with chocolate

cake and breakfast tea beneath

a dripping awning on the big town square

and it took me a stretch to comprehend how

fragile the moments, like looming

mirages, and we, like tiptoes

navigating quicksand

12122011

tonight

i'll nurse my kiss-bruised lips

with yours

12092011

i drove home last night

while humming to the sound of the wind.

some existential elation held me high.

and i stayed inside it

while it lifted me higher,

and swept me along

in invisible indulgence.

and last night,

i slept!

and today i write about that slumber

as if it was an event.

it was.

after countless restless

sleepless nights filled

with reading

with thinking

with writing

with breaking life down

into miniature fragments,

exhaustion drew me

into her arms,

pulled my eyes shut

with pillowed fingers,

and said, sleep.

sleep... and then awaken.

and i slept

and awakened

and understood:

only the awakened

are free.