Wednesday

01192011

lovely days. yesterday. and today.
a big sun in the sky… shining brilliantly… in daytime.
a solid burning… persistent warmth… in the afternoon.
soft balminess… coolness… in the evening.
midnight blue… pierced with diamonds… at night.
and this, after two straight weeks of fog and frost and rain. two weeks of dreary dreary sky.

how does the sun know when i can take her absence no more? how does she recognize… one morning… that it’s time for her to show herself… or else… i might just fall to pieces… get siphoned into the endless spiral of grey?

i don’t mind rain. i love rain. i love that it’s water. i love its rhythmic sound as it falls. pitter patter. pitter patter. i love the violence of rainstorms. but… i detest… grey. it’s my least favorite color. so seemingly neutral. yet… with so many shades. a trickster!

the mood of the sky affects so intensely how i feel inside. when the sky is feeling melancholy… i am melancholy, too.

and so… i sit here… on this mild and beautiful afternoon… listening to cecilia bartoli sing gelido in ogni vena… thinking to myself… nothing is gelido today… because… how stunning is the sky! how stunning are tears when they flow and then rest! how stunning is human emotion! how fragile… how rash when challenged! and yet how discreet… how hushed when satisfied!

oh, what delicious flights of thought!