i always have.
but today
i give up the rules
of the game.
i abandon
the happy ending
(and also the sad one)
for once and for all.
i tell myself
i will not laugh
unless the laughing be spontaneous,
i will not cry
unless the tears be real.
you smile at me
from where you sit.
i find this chain of tension,
this ‘what are the rules?
what must i do?’
is broken.
you look at me
as if reading my thoughts,
you say
as if stealing my words,
you are so beautiful
when you smile.
